A Whole Week Without Supervision!

That's right! A whole week! I'm going out of town for 5 days, and my mom is not allowed! That makes me so happy.
I realized something last night. When it comes to matters of the heart, I am a coward. The guy I like (and I'm putting his real name), Brian, Is just cool. In general. And I want to tell him that I like him (I've decided that it's actual like, and not just interest)but I'm not brave enough. I can stand up in fornt of a crowd of hundreds, and give an improvised speech. I can sing in front of all of them too. I can Jump off of my roof. I can do a bunch of gymnastic tricks. BUT I CAN'T TELL A GUY THAT I LIKE HIM! A guy thats YOUNGER than me! Am I the only one whot thinks that there's something wrong with that picture?! I'm even too scared to give him the website for this, because now it's here, plain as day and available to the whole world that I like him. I've never actually told a guy that I like them. I've successfully told them that I USED to like tham. But not presently. Cuz once, there was this guy, Nick, and I liked him for a good LONG time. SO this jerk Satyen goes and tells him, and it completely ruined our realtionship. He would never be alone with me, or talk to me one on one, until a year later when I stopped liking him, and told him. I was permanantly scarred by that experience, and feel that if I ever tell a guy that I like him, then it will completely screw up our friendship, and Brian and I have a great friendship. I have to spend a week in close contact with him, and it would be awkward. But I want to tell him soon, so that if the highly improbable does happen, and he likes me, we can, you know, spend some time together. *Ahem*.
Julia, when you read this, find him online. As in facebook. Due to my not having one. Maybe you can be brave for me?
This is the second Brian I've liked. The first lives down the street from me, is a year older, and I once saw him smoking. So he's definitely out. Even though I haven't liked him in years.
Don't EVER put a plastic bowl full of popcorn kernels in the microwave. It won't end well.
Christy